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We dream about things unfinished, trying to tie ends in our minds, ends that always fray
A couple nights ago, I dreamed of an old friend. We were with her family: mom, dad, one sister, one brother (although her family is much larger, not all of them could fit in my mind). We were at her childhood home, an old farm-style house with photos puzzling the hallway, an old TV set…
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Monday Journal entry
April 28, 2014 (I almost wrote 2019 … whoa … slow down) Boys share a cigarette on the street corner. One straddles his bike while a smoke points northwest from his ear, a small contrail against his hair, mimicking passing planes. Days grow warm. Summer’s heavy foot will soon walk across the valley. I need…
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Tonto Natural Bridge, Payson, AZ
A few weekends ago, the baby and I went on our own adventure to the Tonto Natural Bridge near Payson, AZ. About an hour and a half, two hours north or Phoenix. I climbed through the entire thing, although, that may be the last time I do a “bouldering” adventure with my belly. The rocks…
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Bees and pet peeves
The bees are dying. A big black one upturned on a sewer grate, the kind imagined from Africa where wild things still grow excessively large. Over the weekend, Pat tried to save one from a swimming pool, but after he set the creature on dry land, it stung him anyway and died. Maybe he was…
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Dearly Beloved,
Can I tell you something serious? When you outlive me, because I know you will, and I’m not just saying this because I’ve had a few beers, I’ve actually thought about this before, a few times, but when you outlive me and people ask you at my eulogy: what was life like with Pat? I…
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Poems vs. babies
On Saturday, I went to Babies R Us, which is kind of a hellish-overpriced place, but I’m not going to lie and say I hated it. I can see why people spend THOUSANDS of dollars in such stores, but who needs a $60 baby bathtub? Can’t you just use a hose? I’m kidding, I’m kidding,…
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Happy Friday, says the Bean
It’s very possible that the reason I’m so tired is because this kiddo will not sit still. During the entire ultrasound this morning, shrimpo (who is not very shrimpo anymore!) was bouncing all over the place. Summersaults, leg flicks, arm flings, dolphin kicks. Baby was having the best time in there! Call it a personal…
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What if…?
I think the past two months I’ve been holding my breath, not letting my mind wander too deeply to the “other” being in my body. Make it to 8 weeks, I told myself early. Make it to 12, I said after that. I’ve been living by numbers: week to week; appointment to appointment, not stopping…
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Beating for two
About a month ago, two cops were on their way to serve a warrant to a man on an attempted murder charge. They were both shot. One, a 43-year-old husband and father, was killed. Thankfully, the other survived, but the community was heartbroken over the entire event. Many spent hours at the site of the…