Author: rachelvb
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6 weeks
The other night I had a dream that a really intelligent, artistic teacher told me out of all her students, she would put me in charge of her class because I had love in my face. When it came to writing it wasn’t so much about all the academics, but the best writing comes from…
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Full circle: A day last week
It’s humid as fuck today. This morning, the sliding glass door was covered in sweat from desert-heat mixed with monsoon. It’s getting harder to sleep, the baby plays a fun, new game called “poke the cervix.” I think it wants out, too. The books lie when they say the baby becomes less active as room…
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Whoa. Mothers carry their baby’s fetal cells for decades. DECADES
“Fetal Consequences” A Radiolab short
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Swift kick to the ribs
We have about 10 weeks left. Give or take. I guess in some unconscious way, most of us chose our birthday. Well most of us that came naturally. I know I was a week or so late. I liked the month of July better, I guess. That should be our last ultrasound, that pic up…
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Family
Before light, the baby stirs under my skin. Love pulls me in, rubs his face in my hair, lays his arm across my bare-hill belly. The baby kicks, kicks me, kicks him: diode to diode to diode. Links in one early motion.
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Reclaimed
I’m listening to music I haven’t listened to in about a year because it reminds me of someone I haven’t seen since, or spoken to really, and when I last saw her, we listened to these songs over and over driving down the highway and having adventures and magical conversations and then shutting up and being…
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Slideshow for the last few weeks
I haven’t written here in a while. I haven’t felt like sharing much. Maybe because the baby takes so much of me already, but it’s far less dramatic than that sounds. I’d gladly give it. I’m just staying quiet inside and don’t feel emotionally strong enough to delve into the goings on in myself or…
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Our sweet face
Last week, we got to see our baby’s sweet face. They spent most of the time on the heart – measuring chambers, listening to chambers, measuring valves, watching valves, it’s amazing what they can see on such a little thing. The baby last week was only 11 inches, how small is the heart of an…