I feel anxious and bored at the same time. Unsure of what to write today if anything. There’s always something to say, but deciding if we want to say it or not is another question. Yesterday I talked to my bestie about writers being loners, solitary beings and I believed it believed it believed it with my bones. And that’s how I want it, how it should be. She’s a guest faculty member at an MFA program here and all the other guest faculty writers are snooty, uptight, my ‘writing cock’ is bigger than your ‘writing cock’ sort of thing. And I realized I never ever ever want to be a part of something like that.

This blog and the other blogs that I traverse through the day are gifts – are true communities where people are not shot down for their ideas, ideas are welcomed. There is no one better or smarter or more creative because we are all ALL of those things in our own ways and they are all accepted. And I thank all of you for giving me such a space of my own – in my solitary room – that at many times is so full of your wonderful energy it makes me feel not alone and alone at the same time. And what a wonderful thing that is. A writer’s dream.


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6 responses to “Thanks”

  1. Thank you for writing! I love reading your words and your daily sojourns inspire me to keep writing.

    And yes, sometimes there is something caustic about the writer ego – just as there is the fine artist ego or the director ego or the mad scientist ego – sometimes it’s less helpful to be in that environment. Writing is most fun when it is about that which the writer makes it about – not the experience of reading it aloud.

    write on.

    1. Thanks, Julia. It’s funny – we were acquaintances in high school, but probably had a lot more in common than we realized. I’m glad we can connect on the good stuff now.
      Many of us are only out for ourselves. We have to be in a way, for our work, but I still don’t see the point of being a complete asshole to another person because you can. I still don’t see the point of making another person feel like shit. Artist or not, we all have something to bring to the table – well most of us…

      write on!!
      xo
      Rachel

  2. I know! I still remember being assigned “Voices” co-editor with you…remember?

    I sometimes wonder how it is that teachers corral off kids who are “creative” vs. kids who are “scientific,” or if there isn’t a way to be both. I think writing about it is one way to figure that out.

    Anyway, as always it’s a pleasure to read your blog.

    1. oh yes! What’s frightening is that it feels like it could have been a year ago…
      I dunno – they must just KNOOOOOW *ominous music*
      I think you can be both. I think that’s more of an individual thing – depends on the person. But it’s just like saying poets can’t be athletes. Whatever chump said that was just jealous he couldn’t be a poet AND an athlete.
      Thank you again and again for coming =)
      xo
      Rachel

  3. I thank you for all those same things. xo

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